snug as a bug in a rug
chris left me alone with his family while he went to work
i’m probably going to spend all this time taking weird selfies on his laptop
-------------CURRENTLY ON HIATUS------------- I hate this flavor with a passion and I fucking hate the aftertaste. ♬
Bec just sent me this pic of her apparently with a tattoo on her head. She never ceases to make me smile :D
Aw babe :’)
Admit it guys I’m hot in this photo
Today marks 31 days since I last cut myself.
I used to do it about 2-3 times a week, and had been doing it since about March 2012, started off small and rare, but eventually getting worse as my depression grew worse and my problems became less tolerable. I did it as a distraction, and it did help me to get my mind off the things bothering me.
But then on the 5th of October I met an amazing person named Chris Armstrong, and he helped me more than any councillor, doctor, self harm or anti-depressant could.
He met me during a very difficult time in my life; I was severely depressed, I had horrible insomnia, I was still having trouble eating properly, I wasn’t going to school, I was having trouble with friends and family, and I was suicidal. It wasn’t a very good time for me, and I wasn’t handling it well at all. I was a very closed up person, and hated sharing my problems or feelings, but after knowing Chris for only a few hours, I felt so comfortable around him, and let him into my life almost immediately. I knew he was someone I wanted, and needed in my life.
He has been my boyfriend since 15th of October, and I know some people think we jumped into it pretty fast but I am so glad we did, because it’s the best decision I’ve ever made. I love having him in my life and I don’t know what I would do without him by my side.
Chris has helped me with everything I need to start getting better. He helped me get rid of things that were bringing me down; a best friend - who didn’t care about all the hurtful things her boyfriend was saying about me and not caring about my problems at all, my school - who were putting more stress on me than what was needed, and probably the most importantly - my razors.
At first I had a few difficulties, but Chris was there for me the entire time, I wouldn’t have been able to do it without him. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for him. I love him so, so much, and don’t know how to express how thankful I am to have him.
Only 31 days since I last hurt myself and my scars have already faded so much, they’re still there and people do notice, but it’s much less noticeable than the deep cuts that were there before.
2013 will be a new start for me; I’ll be at TAFE instead of high school, studying something I actually enjoy. I’ll have my amazing boyfriend to make new memories with, and I will start the year off happier than ever, not depressed. I cannot wait until next year.